Hello everyone. I know it’s been awhile. The past few months have been…hectic to say the least. I figured I’d give an update as to what’s been going on.
In September, I made the decision to separate from my husband. It was not an easy decision but it was something I felt had been coming for awhile. At first, I was still living in the same home until I was able to find something else, but an incident in October which resulted in my ex-father-in-law kicking me out of the house necessitated that process be sped up.
Anyway, I do have a roof over my head, but the whole thing ended up sending me into an almost month long depression spiral. I had ups and downs, but mostly downs. Most days, it took a lot of effort for me to get myself out of bed to do anything. My schoolwork slipped away and I felt it was hopeless to even try and do something, since I would probably fail anyway. Life wise, I felt like I’d alienated myself from everyone by just hiding away and ignoring things, so I just made excuses or straight up told them I was okay, when I honestly wasn’t. I also was having troubles remembering to take my medication regularly, which just added fuel to the fire.
Some conversations with friends where I actually told them how bad things were helped snap me out of it about a week ago and I started to realize that I could fix the damage my almost month long spiral had caused. I went to see the counselling services at school, I sent emails to my profs explaining the situation and most have been very understanding, I’ve been consistent with my medication which seems to have had an almost immediate impact. Things aren’t perfect of course. They never are in life, but I’m in a lot better place mentally than I was.
So now, what about the blog? Well, before this all happened, I was having a great time blogging and sharing my enthusiasm for board games. Gaming isn’t something I’ve done lately but it is something that I slowly want to re-introduce into my life, and this blog is definitely a big part of that. I have a three week placement as part of my program in school coming up that will keep me busy, but I’m going to try and post here at least once a week to get back into things.
So that’s it for this update. I’m going to be continuing my Board Games in the Library series that I started but never finished before this all happened, so stay tuned for that. Other than that, I hope you have an awesome rest of your day, and please remember that it’s okay to not be okay, and if you need help, please reach out and talk to someone.
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